My Lady of the Lantern

#* AF arrived two days early on March 5 (Friday). It was in the afternoon. I was at work and managed to get into a full-blown showdown with a colleague. #* That would peg today as CD6. That's just trivia. #* As has been the case in the past two cycles, I stop consuming aspirin a couple of days prior to the AF. That has helped me in the sense that the bleeding is not as strong as it was tending to become. #* Sometime in January, I tottered off-Gynova. DH tottered off-Spermon. Hurray! * not * #* The words I am really googling right now are: PGD, antioxidants, pranayam and sperm quality. #* I tend to have random bouts of crying. I will attribute that more to the (work-related) stress I had been under lately than anything else. The quest continues. Edited to Add : As severe as the last bullet may sound, I am NOT crying in front of every other stranger or so. Nor do I have whistling spells in front of friends/family/colleagues. It happened twice over the past four days, all brought...

Hey Mom, did they go for a PCT? ...mother turning around... Who Who? ...me pointing fingers... These Beggars. ...a family of streetdwellers, oldest less than 8 years old and youngest a few months old; four-five kids; two adult males, two adult females. No Response. ------------------------------------------------------------- Have you ever wondered why sperm count is such a hyped up number when the trophy sperm needs to be just one? Why God has so many of them swimming towards the subway when it will be just one in a million that may catch the train? ^WiseGuy^

And they are not even crazy. I am being egged to get a Post-Coital Test done. The person I trust here in City G is also a cousin of mine. It is her hospital I go to when I am to do my things here. Somehow, the EQ ( Embarrassment Quotient ) in these tests just keeps on getting higher and higher. I am hurt to have somebody hounding me at all places. First of all, the idea that s#x makes babies got chucked out, and now I have to get ready to allow medical voyeurism as well? Have s#x and spread your legs, honey! I feel sheer disgust. There is a mental block I am experiencing over this. First of all, I am not happy to be in this position. Second, I feel it is very violating, and thirdly, I do not see how easily DH would agree to this. One of things that I have been very happy about is that DH has mildly cribbed, but never gone back on his promise of SA. But to ask him to ‘perform’ like that, when we are just dogs in an open cage, is pathetic. It is tough to break somebody’s resistance, when...

I came back from my City X trip today morning itself. I spent the past two days at the above-indicated place. A detailed history of my fertility woes was noted and a new file with a new doc was created. ~~~~~@~~~~~ The centre is run by a husband and wife duo DJ and SJ, and both of them are doctors of repute. In fact DJ knew me as a kid, but we lost regular contact while I was in my Wonder Years. I had a lot of frank discussion with DJ and I posed him the same question, I have been posing a lot of my doctors….why do so many other people who have so many known root causes for infertility, so lucky in procreating (like my past-druggie cousin, and a schoolmate who was a Pan Parag fan). This guy was the only one who had a funny answer to that. He quipped, “ Does every hardworking guy get a promotion ?” Ah, thanks! Pretty soothing, you know! I have to admit, this was the only time I was smiling at the response. ~~~~~@~~~~~ DJ began his sermon with the line – It takes only one sp...