My Lady of the Lantern

…that it is almost a year to my IVF w/ICSI #1. …that I still feel sad that there were no second chances for me from that cycle. …that it still hurts that none of them are with me. …that I occasionally have very angry thoughts against God. …that when I am not very angry, I am upset with God. …that maybe in a certain time gap from now, I will understand why it happened the way it happened, but by the time I figure it out, I am likely to continue feeling like this. …of some technique by which it can be identified as to what path does the released egg take from the ovary to the fallopian tube. It can be identified whether ovulation occurred, but can it be identified whether the egg travelled into the fallopian tubes or not? …that what I realized on Friday was that the desktop wallpaper that I have had for the past fortnight happens to be ^WiseGuy^ Image Courtesy: http://media.photobucket.com/image/anne%20geddes%20wallpaper/Helenita35/Lenita/6q_2_AnneGeddes_Wallpaper03.jpg

All quiet on the western front! Literally! Well, not much is happening currently. While my staple of pills and Progesterone support continues, the fruits of the ET will get verified only on December 4. I cannot call it an anxious wait, only a long one! I have stopped being stressed. I do not know how this super condition arrived, but luckily, I did get hold of my 'turn-it-off' button. I am sure my embies are there, and I keep on touching my tummy reassuringly. With my mother's magic touch as well, I am sure something good is going to come out of all this. Till then, I am wandering in magical mushroom land, killing time with TV and music and computers! ^WiseGuy^

##November 20, 2008## Started the day by watching Sheryl Crow croon 'Everyday is a Winding Road'. Had an early lunch and went to the centre at 1350 Hrs. The procedure started at 1515 Hrs. I was asked to keep a full bladder for the procedure. Whew! No intracath, no anesthesia. Phenomenal! The procedure goes well and the doc tells me that I cooperated well. I hope I can say the same to my uterus as well! One wonderful thing was that prior to the procedure, my doc showed me where my uterus was and after the procedure, I got to take a pic of the 3 embies they put inside me. I remained on the operating room table for about an hour - just resting and then was transported to the post-operative recovery room. I have clicked some pics there, but as soon as I am able to transfer the pics to my laptop, I will show you what I saw for three more hours in the recovery room. I shared my room with another ET case and a lady who had an ectopic pregnancy and was bleeding. My doc advised me to li...