My Lady of the Lantern

My guest of honour who was expected to reach me on 29th preponed the visit by three days. Even though I tend to Woohoo Whistle Welcome an earlier than usual arrival, this one arrival has left me calculating and reviewing my cycle plan. DH is going to be out of town from December 6th - 12th. Counting by my cycle days, he shall be out from CD11 to CD17, which is significant chunk of my harvest time. Given my plan to commence Clomid for 5 days from CD2, I now wonder whether it is worth it to do Clomid at all. Or that I should start it by let's say, CD4? Or I should just add December to another non-medicated TTC cycle? Questions. Questions. Questions. Thanks God. ^WiseGuy^

With the last hand that Fate dealt me, I was forced to ‘show’ my cards and surrender them for the time being… I read this Donald Rumsfeld quote somewhere that ‘ The world is full of known-knowns, known-unknowns and unknown-unknowns ’. Even though I never really have evaluated Rumsfeld stature in shaping up our world, for me those words rings truer again and again. The anticipated/awaited August cycle is out of the door for me. Even though my advisor wants me to finish my work by September, I personally think it is unrealistic and hence, I shall be trying to realize that dream in a little longer duration. Till the time my final thesis gets submitted into the university and my final Viva happens, there is no calendar window that I can use for a two-month stimming fest. Now, even though I can’t do IVF/ICSI, and I have no faith in IUI, I can still keep trying, naturally. Is that not fair? I am still not decided on ultrasounds-directed sex, but I can work up with the little knowledge that I...

Officially, I touched 4 years and 6 months of TTC efforts today. I started as a passive TTCer and raced on to become an active one and then dashed to being a crazy-tranced TTCer... I have finally put a comma on my TTC efforts. I have finally called for a Time-out to get my life together and recover a bit. Secretly, my hamster dance continues. Useless milestone indeed. ^WiseGuy^

I am over it. I don't know why, but I am just not getting my groove back. It does not mean that I am not TTC anymore. It only means that I am not letting arithmetic get the better of me. ^WiseGuy^