My Lady of the Lantern

...to tell you that I could not get the ultrasound yesterday. And I won't be getting it today either. Dr. BS is not well, and she won't come in... The receptionist at the hospital told me to call up tomorrow and enquire again. I don't want to go to the other doctor available. Waiting is one tough business. ^WiseGuy^

Today I am on the threshold of a new week....and I just look at how close I am getting to those highlighted milestones ( have marked dates on a calendar )...12 weeks is far off, 28 weeks is even more away...and yet every passing date is such a blessing. My symptoms are fluid. My nausea has ceased. Thankfully my boobs and pee-circus still remind me hugely about my present condition.... I also tend to have this dull bitter taste in my mouth, and I appreciate it whole-heartedly. I have my appointment scheduled tonight...and I am pretty excited about the prospect of seeing the gestational sac....I hope and pray that I do see it... I am taking every step with a lot of caution, and I have still not allowed myself unbridled joy over this. I want to be reassured. To this and beyond!! ^WiseGuy^

CONFIRMED!!! 1306 at 17dpo!!!! Woot Woot! Will go with a more composed heart for Tuesday's appointment.... Please keep praying for me/ keeping me in your thoughts. I can't quite believe it... ^WiseGuy^

...So now that the shock is finally wearing off, I am on a pendulum of hope and disbelief. The first time I hit the latter was today afternoon. I have not been sleeping well. I woke up at 4 o' clock in the morning today, and could not go back to sleep. I finally did a lean sleep stretch at 5:30 in the morning. It was similar y'day, but I had woken up a little after 5 o'clock. I had early-wake episodes previously too, but that time, I did not know! I ascribe it partially to worry, and partially to the raging hormones ( please rage on, will you? ). I need to pee a lot...in office, at home, and my sleep gets broken by my desire to empty my bladder. I have thus, decided to intentionally make sure to sip/drink as much water as I can...so that I am all good. My nipples are sore (and I am glad). I have morning night sickness! I thought nausea was supposed to strike in the morning. I had a tiny graze of it on Tuesday night itself, but last night nausea was stronger immediately ...