My Lady of the Lantern

Will be Back Shortly! Everybody stay good and Happy Halloween. ^WiseGuy^ Image Courtesy: http://daydino.blogspot.com/2009/06/who.html

AF is here! Today morning, around 0840, I had a small smile externally and a big relief internally when I saw the spotting. It is three days early, and I believe that early is always better than late. I am also happy because the scheduled day of its commencement was also the bang-on day of Wedding 1 . I will still be 'down' when I attend the wedding, but with a lot less bleeding and infrequent ugh-I-must-go-check moments. I stopped for a second when I was about to swallow my ASA today ( not taken in periods coz it increases the bleeding ), and the logic I had was that, if maximum of the flow happens before I leave for City I, it would be even better. But guess what? Neither has my flow increased, nor am I having major discomfort yet. It is obvious that I now will have my next ASA only when AF goes away. Thank You God. Even though I crib against you a lot, there are times I really appreciate you, and this is one such occasion. ^WiseGuy^

I was leafing through a book at my mother’s place titled Intrauterine Insemination edited by Dr. Gautam Allahbadia. It has several articles, including a historical review on the subject by Dr. Adi E Dastur. I want to share the stories he has told about the incidence of Artificial Insemination in our history. He has spoken of Jeremiah, and Rachel, Sarah, Hannah, Michael and Women in the Abimelech’s household, along with Leah. He has also spoken of how Romans and Greeks appealed for divine intervention and added to it magic formula, songs and incantations. Dr. Dastur states that the tenet of insemination is documented in the Hebraic Talmud in the first 30 years of the second century. A very interesting tale is of an Arabian who during the Arabian hegira in 1322 used insemination on his mare. He left a wad of wool in the mare’s vagina overnight, and then in the cover of darkness had his rival’s prize stallion sniff it. Excited, the stallion ejaculated on a cloth that was kept ready to re...

My MIL's brother came visiting an hour back. His son is about to be married (one of the two major family weddings scheduled this season) and he was out and about distributing invitation cards to the wedding/reception. He asked my mother for tea. And when she got busy, he assumed his this-is-a-great-thing-I-want-to-tell-you pose and began: "Chuck out everything you have been doing. Go to the Big-City. Go. They have the best doctors." Yes, Okay. Alright. How can I chuck out everything? Who will give me back my five years? [A little history though: This fellow lost his first two sons post-birth, ( born living but died within five days of birth ) and the third one survived with great difficulty, but survived. The factor was that wife was Rh negative, or something like that and it was managed in the third try, which was in the Big-City. But that was in the 1970s!] He loves me and he cares for me. And he did not mean any harm by saying it, but what he suggests has little merit...

Hey Mom, did they go for a PCT? ...mother turning around... Who Who? ...me pointing fingers... These Beggars. ...a family of streetdwellers, oldest less than 8 years old and youngest a few months old; four-five kids; two adult males, two adult females. No Response. ------------------------------------------------------------- Have you ever wondered why sperm count is such a hyped up number when the trophy sperm needs to be just one? Why God has so many of them swimming towards the subway when it will be just one in a million that may catch the train? ^WiseGuy^

# Thursday, October 15, 2009 I woke up to a live dream. I baked a cake for my daughter's first birthday and was discussing whether to ice the cake or not with my husband. I was not in favour of the icing, because I thought the cake looked beautiful even minus that, and my hubby thought that it would look even better with the icing. But I remember the little girl distinctly. She had a full head of black hair, she was tiny and delicate looking and had a light wheatish complexion. She was so light to carry. In fact, she was smaller than the size of an average one year old. And she had a name: A- . I actually woke up happy. ^WiseGuy^ P.S.: 1. I do not bake cakes, for the lack of knowing how to bake them. 2. I have never had named children in my dreams, and the name A- is not in my consideration list at all.

...for a little more time than 60 seconds. Be good everybody! ^WiseGuy^ Image Courtesy: http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2008/10/funny-pictures-cat-is-wasting-away-and-needs-cheeseburger.jpg

And they are not even crazy. I am being egged to get a Post-Coital Test done. The person I trust here in City G is also a cousin of mine. It is her hospital I go to when I am to do my things here. Somehow, the EQ ( Embarrassment Quotient ) in these tests just keeps on getting higher and higher. I am hurt to have somebody hounding me at all places. First of all, the idea that s#x makes babies got chucked out, and now I have to get ready to allow medical voyeurism as well? Have s#x and spread your legs, honey! I feel sheer disgust. There is a mental block I am experiencing over this. First of all, I am not happy to be in this position. Second, I feel it is very violating, and thirdly, I do not see how easily DH would agree to this. One of things that I have been very happy about is that DH has mildly cribbed, but never gone back on his promise of SA. But to ask him to ‘perform’ like that, when we are just dogs in an open cage, is pathetic. It is tough to break somebody’s resistance, when...

Saturday was a very busy day for me, being the first day of our annual three day fest. I cam home around 2000 Hrs. and checked my mobile to find two missed calls from my mother. My mother never gives up. An ex-assistant of a very famous Infertility Specialist in a Real-Big-City has recently become her neighbour and my mother had taken my file to her for a peek. As usual nothing burning comes out from the file. But the fragmentation in the embryos seems to be the only clue. The doctor recommended a few tests. My mother asked me to get the tests done. I told my mother in an equanimous voice that there was nothing on this front that I wanted to do in October - November. My mother told me that if I got the tests done at my own end, we would be able to take it from there in December. I began to lose it really. See, my mother does not get the point. I don't want to do anything in October and November! Next, my mother told me that the lady angel had advised her that lifestyle change reall...

Mai of Salvageable gave my blog the Over The Top award ! Thank You Mai! There are certain rules that I need to follow to get to eat it, and they read as: 1. you can only use one word! 2. pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers 3. alert them that you have given them this award! 4. have fun! 1. Where is your cell phone? Table 2. Your hair? Brown-Black 3. your mother? Spiritual 4. Your father? Funny 5. Your favorite food? Non-Vegetarian 6. Your dream last night? An Office-Event 7. Your favorite drink? Pepsi 8. Your dream/goal? Disneyland 9. What room are you in? Drawing Room 10. Your hobby? Reading 11. Your fear? Snakes 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? With-kids 13. Where were you last night? Home 14. Something that you aren’t? Skinny 15. Muffins? Chocolate 16. Wish list item? Tattoo 17. Where did you grow up? Land 18. Last thing you did? Spoke 19. What are you wearing? Attitude 20. Your TV? Movies 21. Your pets? Morris and Giccha Piccha 22. Friends? Useful 23. Your life? T...

Her: So, how many years has it been? (Reference: Married Life) Me: Almost six years! Her: Wow! You don't look like that at all. So, you must have a baby? Me: Nah! But we are thinking of planning for one now. Her: ....Smiling.... Me: ....Smiling.... ^WiseGuy^ Situation: Casual chat with a new joinee...we had travelled together overnight to attend a meeting at some place.

There are a few bloggers that I want to thank for the goodies that they sent my way. It made my day to receive them, but beyond that, the goodies remain with me to cheer me everyday. ## Kekis from Fertile Ramblings : She sent me a pomegranate bracelet – the colour of infertility sisterhood, a thread of love. Even though she had hosted the giveaway, her sister had made the bracelet, and so I would like to thank both of them. ## Kristin from The Fertile Infertile : Well, I got a with-attitude cat, Garfield and Scooby-Doo from her. The latter has been rechristened as Odie. One of my favourite posts that she does often is the Adventures of Gabeycakes. I would like to thank Kristin for sending me the two, they are for keeps! ## Sassycupcakes from Over the Rainbow : She played Santa Claus literally. All I did was help her pick up the winner, and I got two packages in gifts from her! One was the yum-scented soap, and the other package had: chocolates, a sample toast spread and a Koala! Tha...