My Lady of the Lantern

I am afraid that I won't conceive again. How can it be that while I can't see a new baby fitting in my set day I can't get over the idea of wanting another one? My metformin finished, and I just did not go back to the chemist to get any more. I have been very inconsistent about this. I don't believe in the drug. I don't believe in myself.  I just let it slip away. And I now feel like going back and give this thing a good shot. 

I have misplaced my princess  period diaries. You know the offline record that I had from 2008? That record is gone. I don't even remember when I last and browsed the old diaries.