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I am afraid that I won't conceive again.

How can it be that while I can't see a new baby fitting in my set day I can't get over the idea of wanting another one?

My metformin finished, and I just did not go back to the chemist to get any more. I have been very inconsistent about this. I don't believe in the drug. I don't believe in myself. 

I just let it slip away. And I now feel like going back and give this thing a good shot. 

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  1. AnotherDreamer31 October 2013 at 21:17

    Good luck. I hope that you do conceive again, soon.

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  2. Mina1 November 2013 at 20:17

    The ebb and flow of wanting another baby... Hugs. I have no advice or useful input of any sort. I just hope you get what you want, either another baby or to move on in peace.

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