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Things I learnt about myself this year...and some more...


- One's parents' friends are exactly that - parents' friends.

- It is possible to deeply love and yet despise someone.

- As a person, I can't handle company 24x7. I need some alone time.

- No pain compares to watching something happen to your own child.

- Some people enter your life for a brief while. They are very important in that phase.

- Till there is life, there is hope. Till.

- What's coming up next is sometimes completely un-guessable.

- I punished certain people by shutting them out of my life not because they were any worse than some others, but because they were too soft as targets and it was entirely possible to torture them. I heaped my reaction too heavily on them.


- I found myself capable of being very sad and yet being able to mingle and dissolve in a social gathering.

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  1. Anonymous31 December 2011 at 16:16

    I totally get no. 3.
    It breaks my heart to know that you know how no.2 and 4 feel like.

    Hope 2012 is the best year you knew so far.

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  2. lostintranslation31 December 2011 at 19:04

    I completely agree with kmina. Here's to the wonderful things that lie ahead.

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  3. Janet's page1 January 2012 at 00:00

    You my friend have learned so much this past year and have grown so much this year.....It will takes years to fully come to grips with this "new life" you will lead but someday your wisdom/hurt/suffering/understanding(if you get there) will greatly affect someone else when they need it most!!!

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  4. Sudbury Creative Reuse Centre1 January 2012 at 00:21

    I read this post and see a woman who has gone through so much but is still willing to look deeply at herself and see all that is there. No one is perfect and terrible hurts can bring out the worst in us. But recognizing this and allowing yourself to move forward is a part of the growth that sees you where you are today. Whatever comes your way this year, know that you are strong enough and good enough to handle it.

    Happy New Year.

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  5. areyoukiddingme1 January 2012 at 08:08

    I hope 2012 has better lessons in store for you...

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  6. Baby Smiling In Back Seat1 January 2012 at 12:19

    I hope that 2012 brings you only happiness.

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  7. Anonymous2 January 2012 at 05:04

    All wonderful lessons. Wishing you a blissful 2012!

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  8. Nadine2 January 2012 at 06:50

    I too need alone time, it's probably why I would have never married unless I met my husband and found someone I can be alone together.

    May 2012 be kind to you.

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  9. SassyCupcakes2 January 2012 at 16:03

    You forgot how brave, resilient and strong you are. You survived the worst and now have a new year of hope and love ahead. I hope it's nothing but wonderful. :)

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