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My mental state is very fluid currently. Not only am I not able to think straight sometimes, I also seem to be contemplating on two diametrically different courses of action most of the times.

Whatever I choose to do, I want to keep my dignity intact. I do not see it as a game of winning and losing, because trust me, the loss has already been incurred. 

February was not very good for M, health-wise. 

M is an easier baby than Figlia in certain respects. However, with him around, I also have to don the cap of a referee, because he does not want anything except everything that Figlia is holding. Once he gets it, he will just go after the next thing Figlia is doing. 

All my insecurity has swum to the surface. My awareness of my own weaknesses and imperfections has become intense. 

I stopped going to the gym. I was having time issues, and I was not enjoying it. 




Comments

  1. Sounds like you're having a rough time. Life is a roller coaster, right? You have to endure the lows and enjoy the highs.

    Try focusing on your strengths sometimes too. Maybe that will help your endurance.

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  2. One day at a time hon. One decision at a time. I know it feels like you're drowning but you can do this!

    xxx

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