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Still Gray

The results will be out in a few hours. 

I had cramping (uncharacteristic) all of late afternoon/evening yesterday. It freaked me out.

Yesterday, while driving towards her daycare, I realized that I had not asked God for anything yet. I still did not.

Yesterday evening, I hugged her more for calming myself than for loving her. 

Last night, while washing my face before going to bed, I almost said, "Please", and did not follow it up with any request. 

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  1. Anonymous20 August 2013 at 14:11

    Can't wait to hear the official results. It's ok to admit that you want this Honey. xxx

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  2. Fran20 August 2013 at 15:20

    Thinking of you, the uncertainty is a killer. Love

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  3. areyoukiddingme22 August 2013 at 00:50

    Read the results first...I'm sorry.

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