...On the night of 19th when my breasts became hard and sore to touch, the nurses brought me hot water bottles rather than my baby. I should have known. ...Birdman was apparently away to Very Big City with our baby. Every SMS update sent to me about her after 16th Jan was fake. I was a donkey eating at his trough. I should have known. ...Visitors who came to see me in the hospital did not look me straight in the eye. I should have known. ...My mother sounded reluctant every time I asked her on a timeline on when my stitches would be cut and I could travel to Very Big City. I should have known. ...I grieved at how many pricks and tubes were affixed to my little baby while she lay cold and unfeeling at the bottom of an earth pit fatigued from all the effort she put into staying alive. I should have known. ...Family dropped clues on how oxygen deprivation could affect the brain. I spelt it out for them. I told them that Lola was my daughter even if she came out r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d from the o...
Hugs, sweet friend. Many hugs, for I have no other words...
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XOXO
Be kind to yourself. It is ok to have had hope.
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I'm sorry. Hugs to you.
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ReplyDelete(I was saying "please" for you, too)
Hope is such a harsh mistress. I am so sorry.
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So sorry. :(
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So sorry. Hugs
ReplyDeleteFrom ICLW... I'm so sorry. No matter how many times it happens, it never gets any easier. Hugs to you...
ReplyDeleteFrom ICLW... I'm so sorry. No matter how many times it happens, it never gets any easier. Hugs to you...
ReplyDeleteSo sorry you didn't get the results you wanted. Don't give up. If you don't give up, you'll eventually get the results you want.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. I hate it when that happens. Good luck for next time.
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Sending you happy thoughts at this difficult time.
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