You're trying for the Elana Kahn version of life, eh? ;-) Though, to be fair, we were trying both with Tzipora and this little one. And we no longer mess around without birth control unless we wanted a surprise. After our "surprise" Tzipora, I take no risks. lol I'll keep my fingers crossed that an "oops" is out there for you! <3
I'm right there with you on longing for a happy "accident." Like you, not jealous or hurt, just longing. It takes away a lot of the decision making.....to continue or not....
...On the night of 19th when my breasts became hard and sore to touch, the nurses brought me hot water bottles rather than my baby. I should have known. ...Birdman was apparently away to Very Big City with our baby. Every SMS update sent to me about her after 16th Jan was fake. I was a donkey eating at his trough. I should have known. ...Visitors who came to see me in the hospital did not look me straight in the eye. I should have known. ...My mother sounded reluctant every time I asked her on a timeline on when my stitches would be cut and I could travel to Very Big City. I should have known. ...I grieved at how many pricks and tubes were affixed to my little baby while she lay cold and unfeeling at the bottom of an earth pit fatigued from all the effort she put into staying alive. I should have known. ...Family dropped clues on how oxygen deprivation could affect the brain. I spelt it out for them. I told them that Lola was my daughter even if she came out r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d from the o...
...for a little more time than 60 seconds. Be good everybody! ^WiseGuy^ Image Courtesy: http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2008/10/funny-pictures-cat-is-wasting-away-and-needs-cheeseburger.jpg
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ReplyDeleteJust so that we are very clear here, the operative word is 'longing' and not hurt or jealousy.
ReplyDeleteHugs, dear. Many hugs.
ReplyDeleteYou're trying for the Elana Kahn version of life, eh? ;-) Though, to be fair, we were trying both with Tzipora and this little one. And we no longer mess around without birth control unless we wanted a surprise. After our "surprise" Tzipora, I take no risks. lol I'll keep my fingers crossed that an "oops" is out there for you! <3
ReplyDeleteWell, it's one way to approach the whole idea...
ReplyDeleteYep... I get this. That's part of why we are in such shock right now - unplanned was our only chance of a happy "accident." ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you on longing for a happy "accident." Like you, not jealous or hurt, just longing. It takes away a lot of the decision making.....to continue or not....
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