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One Tiny Thought

It is something I have been holding on to.


When a battle/war is fought, generally, the outcome is the first thing that becomes known to the world. And even though it is the Generals on either side who are the spotlights of the story, there are a lot of soldiers involved too.


Soldiers too, know the outcome of what they have just faced, but every narrative would be different. Each soldier would have a story to tell, culminating into what the rest of the world knows as common knowledge. This story would have elements common to others' tales, and would also imbibe individual circumstances.


What you read from my side, is well, my side.


That is why, when people around me dish the had-good-intentions theory, I leave margin for that. We were ambushed, and in the worst way possible.


I still do not think that I will ever overcome what was hidden from me, but I keep my ears open. I torture those around me, but I keep my heart open. My tears are the most important for me, but I keep my eyes open. I do not always agree to what others say, but I keep my mouth open. I will never forget her memories, but I keep my mind open.


Comments

  1. Thank you for your honesty. For continuing to share. You are remarkable, I hope you know that. xx

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  2. What a beautiful, honest post...

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  3. The openness you are able to maintain after what you've experienced is evidence of your amazing character and fortitude.

    And resilience. Very inspiring.

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  4. Beautifully written analogy Elsie.

    Your open heart and mind do you credit.

    xxx

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  5. You have an ever amazing spirit....

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  6. I think being able to see that there is another side, even if you cannot possibly comprehend it, is so important to maintaining sanity and reducing resentment. Good for you.

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  7. So lovely and sad at the same time, St. E. Thank you for continuing to be raw and real - I hope that it is, in some small way, helping you to heal the heal-able places in your heart.
    Love,
    Maddy

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  8. The hardest thing to do in great pain is to stay open, to stay vulnerable.

    I fail at this frequently.

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