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Restoring

I was going to write a sonnet for my AF, but I did something so superb today that I need to *excited* share it.

I deleted my farm! Not from the earth, fellas - coz I don't own no inch of farming land on this planet. I deleted my Zynga driven farm.

I am so freed by it. I was sucked-obsessed with it and the promise of the second farm would have taken me down from knee-deep to neck-deep.

I played FV knowing I should be doing other things, and yet I remained hooked. I felt anxious when my crops were to mature, or things were ready to be harvested. I felt guilty when I actually started tending to it. Lately, I found myself glued to game feeds...it was crazy, I tell you.

I am feeling so good really.

And now comes the other restoration.

Today is CD3 and I began my Metformin and micronutrients again. Birdman will begin his micronutrients when he comes back to UsualCity.

Bleeding has been disciplined and I do not feel as ill-at-ease and incompetent at handling it like the February love I had received from it.

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  1. Kathleen23 March 2011 at 18:44

    Yeah!! I think this is a step into a healing space for you! I'm glad you are feeling ok to handle your AF. Hugs.

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  2. Pundelina23 March 2011 at 18:50

    Oh Wiseguy, I am glad March is treating you better than Feb and that you are feeling released by your deletion.

    ((hugs))

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  3. Josey23 March 2011 at 19:09

    LOL, I have friends that have been sucked into FV - I had to straight up hide it from everything in my newsfeed to avoid getting obsessed with it as well. Good for you for deleting it! :)

    C'mon Metformin! Hoping this equalizes everything for you and gets you back on track.

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  4. Michele23 March 2011 at 19:31

    Good for you!!! I've never started those games because I dont particularly care for videogames in general, but I could SO easily get sucked into stuff like that that I have to avoid them!

    And, if you have the urge, I'd love to see a sonnet about AF ;)

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  5. Lavender Luz23 March 2011 at 20:27

    I can certainly understand the need to nurture and grow something to maturity, even if it's something virtual.

    And I can also appreciate resetting that urge to something more here and now. Kudos to you, WB.

    Glad you are feeling freer!

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  6. Brenda23 March 2011 at 21:02

    I'm so glad that are feeling a bit better in your space, minus a farm! Sometimes just taking a step in one direction can help reset a mood. I hope it continues!

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  7. Barbara23 March 2011 at 21:11

    Hey, good for you. I've never been interested in those FB games but I try to steer myself away from anything that seems like it's becoming an unhealthy obsession (apart from ttc of course!).

    I'm glad your hormones are behaving and you feel ready to look forward.

    xxx

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  8. Melis.sa23 March 2011 at 21:32

    I had to delete my farm months ago for the same reason. Now I'm hooked on City.ville. Sigh.

    I'm glad AF has been gentler with you this month and hopefully the Met.formin will help this cycle move along.

    ((HUG))

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  9. Lisette23 March 2011 at 22:42

    Glad you hear you are having better days this month.

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  10. kmina23 March 2011 at 23:59

    Happy to hear that you are feeling better this month.
    And good for you for giving up virtual farming, 'small' games are so addictive and time consuming...

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  11. Janet's page24 March 2011 at 00:19

    Woot Woot!!
    I just realized the other day that I haven't been to my "zoo" in MONTHS!!! I couldn't believe it, I too was soooooooooo obsessed that everything else faded and I felt so bad about it, such a crappy wife and mother for it...

    Way to go girl for getting rid of that!!!

    AND woo hoo for processing and trying to find a way to heal and see positive again!!!!

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  12. AnotherDreamer24 March 2011 at 00:25

    Yay for positive steps. I hope the meds get things in line, and AF minds herself.

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  13. one-hit_wonder24 March 2011 at 07:08

    I'm so happy to hear that you're having better days. XXX

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  14. Kacey24 March 2011 at 09:07

    Read 2 posts back on www.kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com
    Gods grace...and how to viewmbad things that happen in our life.

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  15. Hope's Mama24 March 2011 at 13:52

    This all sounds positive to me, and that can only be a good thing.
    Sending love.
    xo

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  16. Alex24 March 2011 at 19:24

    Sending you love - all of this sounds wonderful.

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  17. MrsSpock26 March 2011 at 07:57

    Ditto to everything Lavender said. And I hope those micronutrients make their own fertile soil of the nonvirtual type.

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  18. Kristin26 March 2011 at 08:46

    MrsSpock and Lavender said it so well!

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  19. Anonymous27 March 2011 at 17:57

    Kudos on being released from FV! Well done! Although I do recognise the need to have an obsession ... I go through this also. With games. Escapism, any reality is better than my reality, right? Right. Having said that ... I'd love to see you hooked on a puter game than FV!

    Glad that March is being kinder to you than Feb and that you're keeping that bitch AF in check.

    xx

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  20. Kir28 March 2011 at 19:00

    I never got into FV or any of the others, but I know that my obessions run to blogs or DVR so I know of which you speak.

    so glad that March holds more hope and light than the last few months. Hoping your SPRING is on the way.
    xo

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  21. Quiet Dreams11 April 2011 at 20:36

    I understand the benefits of things like FV to get one through a tough time, but I, like others here have said, can be quite obsessive, so there are certain things I intentionally stay away from, like FV. Or scrapbooking.

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