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Lola had a cardiac arrest on Jan 16, 2011 which she did not survive. I was kept in the dark.

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  1. ryanandjoesmom22 January 2011 at 20:07

    Oh my heart is just breaking for you. I wish I could be there to hold you up.

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  2. gingerandlime22 January 2011 at 20:10

    My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry. There are no words for this. Just keep breathing.

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  3. Heather22 January 2011 at 20:34

    I know there are no words to comfort you, but I am praying for you and your family...

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  4. Emmy22 January 2011 at 20:35

    Oh no. I'm so so sorry. I wish I could do something to make it better.

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  5. MrsSpock22 January 2011 at 20:43

    Oh dear God. My heart is breaking for you.

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  6. Kymberli22 January 2011 at 20:43

    Oh, my God. "I'm sorry" doesn't even begin to touch the sorrow that I feel for you and your husband. You had been in my prayers, and so you continue to be. I'm abiding with you from afar and holding you in warmth.

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  7. C22 January 2011 at 21:12

    God! Nothing I say can be adequate. I am so sorry.

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  8. Searching22 January 2011 at 21:20

    I am devastated for you. I am so very sorry for your loss of Lola. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  9. Kelly22 January 2011 at 21:22

    The words I'm sorry just don't seem nearly enough in comparision to your pain. But I am. Truly, truly sorry. You and your family are in my prayers.

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  10. Cathy22 January 2011 at 21:37

    So so sorry for your loss.

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  11. Flying Monkeys22 January 2011 at 21:40

    How does that happen that you were not told!?! I am heart broken for your loss. I am so sorry.

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  12. battynurse22 January 2011 at 21:48

    OMG! I'm so so sorry. Many hugs being sent your way and you're in my thoughts and prayers.

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  13. Aunt Becky22 January 2011 at 21:51

    I'm so, so very sorry. Sending you love and light.

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  14. Melis.sa22 January 2011 at 21:51

    I am so, so unbelievably sorry.

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  15. Caz22 January 2011 at 21:56

    I'm so sorry

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  16. Kim22 January 2011 at 21:57

    I have "silently" been following your blog and am just shocked, dumbfounded, and aching for you. I know this doesn't mean much right now, but I am praying for you and your family.

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  17. Jen22 January 2011 at 22:06

    continued prayers for your family...

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  18. Kristin22 January 2011 at 22:13

    Oh my God, I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. My heart is truly breaking for you. There are just no words to express how badly I feel for you. Oh honey, I wish I was there so I could share part of the burden and the sorrow.

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  19. Jackie22 January 2011 at 23:06

    This is just...oh wow...I have no words, just prayers and thoughts and hugs and...I wish there was something, anything, I could do. I'm so sorry.

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  20. Kristin (kekis)22 January 2011 at 23:08

    Oh my God, S. It is unbelievable that you are having to go through this. I am heartbroken for you all and am sending fervent prayers for peace and comfort. Know that Lola has been loved by many, and we are all here for you now.

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  21. Barbara22 January 2011 at 23:14

    Oh no no no.
    I'm so sorry S.

    I wish there was something.
    I'm just so very very sad for you and your family.

    Sending all my love.

    xxx

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  22. Rachael22 January 2011 at 23:16

    Oh no! I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  23. Baby Smiling In Back Seat22 January 2011 at 23:18

    Oh Wiseguy, I am so terribly shocked and saddened to hear this. I am so sorry.

    As if losing her was not bad enough, the doctors keeping it from you is outrageous.

    Thinking of you and Birdman.

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  24. cysteract22 January 2011 at 23:25

    Holding you, your family and your sweet sweet angel in my prayers. Heartbreaking ..I am lost for words.

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  25. Stacie22 January 2011 at 23:25

    No! I am heartbroken for you! I am so, so sorry to hear this horrible news. I wish that I could do something to make the world right and bring her back to you.

    Thinking of you and sending love...

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  26. kmina22 January 2011 at 23:28

    NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
    I can't believe this. I have no words to tell you how sorry I am and how I wish this weren't true. I am thinking of and praying for you and your family...

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  27. Delenn22 January 2011 at 23:40

    I am so very sorry for your loss of such a sweet soul. I cannot imagine the pain, anger and sadness you must be feeling. I wish I was there to hold you up to this cruel world. Thinking of you.

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  28. Liza22 January 2011 at 23:46

    No! Oh WiseGuy, there are no words. You are not alone. You are in my prayers.

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  29. Meg.22 January 2011 at 23:51

    This is just beyond horrific. Shaking fists at the universe and wailing horrific.

    Shedding tears with you for your sweet, beautiful daughter.

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  30. sarah22 January 2011 at 23:58

    I am so sorry. So very sorry. This world is cruel and unfair, and it often makes absolutely no sense. May the love and light of your family and friends hold you up in this impossible darkness.

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  31. Beautiful Mess23 January 2011 at 00:15

    Oh Wise Guy, I am SO sorry. I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. I'm sending you so many prayers and so much love. Please, do take care of yourself. We're all here for you.
    *HUGS*

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  32. Wishing 4 One23 January 2011 at 00:29

    I really dont know what to say....really.
    Just know we are all here for you and know that Lola is in our hearts. I am so sad for you my friend. We are here, write when you need to. Sending you hugs and prayers my friend.

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  33. Suzie23 January 2011 at 00:30

    Oh Wise Guy, I am so so so sorry, words cannot begin to help I'm sure. My heart is breaking for you. Sending you prayers, thoughts, love and hugs.

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  34. In Due Time23 January 2011 at 00:31

    There are NO words to take away your pain. I just want to hold you tight. We love you. We're all here for you. I'm so so very sorry.

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  35. m23 January 2011 at 00:44

    No. No no no no. This cannot be happening. WiseGuy...I can't find the words but can't stay silent. I am so, terribly and deeply sorry. This is all wrong.

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  36. mummydr23 January 2011 at 00:46

    I can not believe what I'm reading. I'm so so sorry.....

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  37. Mrs. Gamgee23 January 2011 at 00:47

    Oh hon... I am so very sorry. Words are inadequate right now. Holding you, your DH, and your precious angel in our prayers and hearts!

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  38. BB23 January 2011 at 00:57

    I am speachless! I am so very sorry! And I can't fathom the fact that the bloody docs and fam didn't tell you anything!

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  39. Mrs.Joyner23 January 2011 at 00:57

    I don't think sorry even begins to cover it..I can't..there aren't even words. I am shocked and dumbfounded beyond belief. To loose her is one thing, to be kept in the dark, is so awful that there is a special place in hell for the doctors that did that to you. I wish I could say something to at least numb the pain..Please know you are heavy in my thoughts and prayers today.

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  40. Jamie23 January 2011 at 01:03

    Oh, Wiseguy. My heart feels frozen in my chest. I know there are no words that will ease your pain and sadness but know that I am sending you much, much love.

    Dearest Wiseguy - I am holding you in my heart. Lola - you are much loved, we wish you could have stayed longer.

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  41. Kakunaa23 January 2011 at 01:15

    Oh, my .... Lovie, I don't even know what to say. I am weeping for you, for your sweet daughter. I am so, so sorry. And I am sending you my love and prayers and thoughts. I'm so sorry.

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  42. gorillabuns23 January 2011 at 01:26

    I am so very sorry. so very, very sorry.

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  43. Miracle in the Making23 January 2011 at 01:27

    Oh sweetie. I am so so heartbroken for you and your loss. Sending so many prayers...

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  44. Noelle23 January 2011 at 01:27

    I am so sorry. I am in tears for you and your sweet daughter. Please know that so many of us are thinking of you right now and holding you and your family in our hearts.

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  45. The Clam23 January 2011 at 01:38

    Oh God. Wiseguy I am so sorry. You and Birdman are in my thoughts and prayers. xxx

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  46. one-hit_wonder23 January 2011 at 02:12

    My heart is breaking for you.

    Why were you kept in the dark? - what a cruel thing for anyone to do to you.

    I'm stunned.

    XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

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  47. cainml23 January 2011 at 02:24

    There are no words. I'm so sorry.

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  48. Hope's Mama23 January 2011 at 02:24

    There are simply no words. My heart is absolutely broken for you.
    I'm so desperately sorry.
    With so much love.
    Sally
    xo

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  49. infertileinafertileworld23 January 2011 at 02:29

    I am so sorry for your loss. :(

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  50. Rebecca23 January 2011 at 02:31

    I am just so sorry.

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  51. jenicini23 January 2011 at 02:56

    I know there's no words that will help at this moment. But please know that we are thinking of you and Birdman. (hugs)

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  52. JuliaS23 January 2011 at 03:27

    I know there is nothing to say - nothing that makes any of this any better at all. I'm so sorry, I wish there was more. I wish there was more, and a better ending to this story. Still holding you and Lola in my heart.

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  53. Adam and Julia23 January 2011 at 03:47

    Oh My God!! I do not know what to say. My heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry!

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  54. runnyyolk23 January 2011 at 03:49

    I am so sorry. That seems so inadequate though...

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  55. Meredith23 January 2011 at 03:56

    Sorry doesn't feel adequate, but I'm so very sorry.

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  56. christopher23 January 2011 at 04:11

    Sorry doesn't seem like it comes close to being enough. You're in my prayers.

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  57. Dora23 January 2011 at 04:25

    NO! I feel like I've been kicked in the stomach reading this. My heart is breaking for you.

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine the reasoning behind keeping you in the dark. Sending love out to you and dear Lola.

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  58. AnxiousMummyto323 January 2011 at 04:48

    I am so sorry for your loss Wiseguy, this is just heartbreaking.

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  59. Michele23 January 2011 at 04:54

    I know it is of such little consolation right now but as I sit here weeping for the loss of your sweet Lola, please know that you are all in my heart. Even though I did not know her, my heart is full of love for her and I will remember her in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry... So very sorry.

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  60. K23 January 2011 at 05:01

    No, no, no, no, no.

    My heart hurts for yours.

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  61. Lori23 January 2011 at 05:04

    I came here from barbaras blog...I know there are no words when you have literally been slammed in the face with a million bricks..it happened to us and our world will never be the same. I am so, so, so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  62. 'Murgdan'23 January 2011 at 05:09

    As it has already been written...there are no words. Tears for you and your family...and your beautful Lola.

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  63. Lavender Luz23 January 2011 at 05:23

    I am holding you in my heart, even as it breaks for you.

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  64. Paula23 January 2011 at 05:40

    I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  65. AnotherDreamer23 January 2011 at 05:40

    Oh no, I am so so sorry. (*HUGS*) My heart is breaking for you, I wish I could be there for you. I wish there was something I could do for you. I'll be keeping you all in my thoughts, sending lots of love your way.

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  66. Alana23 January 2011 at 05:54

    Thinking of you and your DH... hurting for you, and sorry for your loss.

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  67. Quiet Dreams23 January 2011 at 06:08

    My heart is breaking for you.

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  68. Ya Chun23 January 2011 at 06:17

    I am so sorry that your beautiful Lola did not stay here with you. It is truly a heartbreak.

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  69. elephantscanremember23 January 2011 at 06:17

    (hugs) I am so very, very sorry.

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  70. Once A Mother23 January 2011 at 06:29

    No words. Just so much love and sorrow and deep deep sympathy. I am so, so sorry :(

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  71. Danifred23 January 2011 at 06:53

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Much love!

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  72. Baby Steps23 January 2011 at 07:15

    I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  73. Sophie23 January 2011 at 07:29

    I am so sorry. :(

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  74. Bea23 January 2011 at 07:40

    I am so sorry to hear this news. I wish it was different.

    Bea

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  75. Allison (Ali)23 January 2011 at 08:00

    I am so sorry to hear this news. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  76. sonja23 January 2011 at 08:06

    Here from Michele's blog. I am so, SO incredibly sorry.

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  77. Allison23 January 2011 at 08:17

    My deepest condolences; my heart is with you.

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  78. Stephanie23 January 2011 at 08:54

    I am praying for you and your family, and I am deeply sorry for your loss.

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  79. Elana23 January 2011 at 08:54

    NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!! I am so, so sorry sweetie.

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  80. foxy23 January 2011 at 08:59

    Oh honey, this is heartbreaking. I am so so sorry for your loss.

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  81. Rach23 January 2011 at 09:13

    I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for comfort and peace. The doctors should be ashamed of themselves.

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  82. rebecca23 January 2011 at 09:13

    I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter, this is a grief that no one should endure. Sending so much love and hope that you find strength for the days ahead and feel surrounded by the love and support of many ((hugs))

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  83. dinagideon23 January 2011 at 09:28

    I came here from another blog and I want you to know that there are many prayers being said for you and your sweet family right now. We are incredibly sorry and wish that there was something that could be done to end ALL the suffering of our dear sweet littlest ones...

    Big hugs from a virtual friend.

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  84. JJ23 January 2011 at 09:57

    Wishing I could do more than type words...so many prayers, thoughts....many, many hugs.

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  85. Mad Hatter23 January 2011 at 10:17

    I am so very sorry and sad.
    Love,
    Maddy

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  86. Angelwingsbaby23 January 2011 at 11:51

    So sad to read this, there are no words.

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  87. Aramelle23 January 2011 at 11:57

    No one should ever have to endure this pain. I am so very sorry for your loss and will keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  88. stink-bomb23 January 2011 at 12:19

    Words are inadequate and yet sorry needs to be said. Sending you bucketloads of love to you and your beautiful Lola - always in your heart.

    ~x~

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  89. Sharon23 January 2011 at 12:56

    Oh God! Oh God!!!
    Wiseguy! Holding you close!
    I know sorry just doesn't cut it, but I am so very sorry for your indescribable loss!
    xx

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  90. Esperanza23 January 2011 at 13:16

    I don't understand how this happened. I'm so sorry for your lose. I know my words cannot bring you comfort but please know that you are in my thoughts and in my heart.

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  91. manapan23 January 2011 at 13:16

    OMG! I am so sorry, not just for your loss but for all the crazy things that had to happen for you not to be informed of it. Your family is in my thoughts. (((hugs)))

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  92. Heather23 January 2011 at 14:29

    I am so very, very sorry.

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  93. Frustrated Fairy23 January 2011 at 17:03

    words fail me, I am so sorry. I can't believe this has happened.

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  94. Coffeegrljp23 January 2011 at 17:14

    I am just so incredibly sorry. Extending my deepest sympathies.

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  95. Celia23 January 2011 at 17:31

    My prayers are with you and your family.

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  96. Holly23 January 2011 at 17:45

    I'm so sorry. :'( Praying...

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  97. Serendipity23 January 2011 at 18:36

    I am so sorry. Thinking of you and your family.

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  98. Mrs. Lemon23 January 2011 at 19:05

    Unbelievably sorry. There are no words that can help you right now I'm sure. We will all be here to talk to when you need us and are ready. I can't believe this happened.

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  99. IF Optimist, then...23 January 2011 at 20:23

    Oh honey. I am sooo sorry and heartbroken for you. I wish that I wasn't a world away and that I could sit with you, hold you while you cry and whisper back that it isn't right and it isn't fair and that your sweet Lola will always be precious beyond words.

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  100. unaffected23 January 2011 at 20:28

    My heart aches for you.

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  101. MelissaP0523 January 2011 at 20:42

    I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your family.

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  102. Girl (running) in the dark23 January 2011 at 20:54

    I'm coming from a friend's blog and I am very heartbroken for you. And as I've read bits of your story and background, even though we don't know each other, I am crying here to think of how much pain you are in.

    I know there are no words that are adequate, but we will be praying and thinking about you.

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  103. Isabel23 January 2011 at 21:09

    I don't know why you were kept in the dark, but I do know that you are Lola's mother and you hold her in your heart. I wish you could have held her and said goodbye in person. I will pray for you and for your family, for everyone who was part of Lola's life and death. It is a tragedy and I offer you my deepest sympathy. I hope you can find comfort, calm and peace again. I believe God loves Lola more perfectly than we can imagine and holds her now. You will be with her in person again one day.

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  104. 18october23 January 2011 at 21:36

    I am so sorry *hugs*

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  105. E23 January 2011 at 21:44

    Sending you lots of love during this horrible, unbearable time in your life.

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  106. Suzanne23 January 2011 at 21:54

    I am so so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers. HUGS!!!

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  107. butterflymom23 January 2011 at 22:05

    I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your beautiful little girl, Lola. Please know that you are thought of daily as you mourn your daughter. Take it one day at a time...and hopefully you will find peace someday in the future. Sending hugs and love.

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  108. Sheliza23 January 2011 at 23:03

    Blessings to you and your family for peace during this sad time.

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  109. sprogblogger23 January 2011 at 23:05

    I am so very sorry.

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  110. Circus Princess23 January 2011 at 23:09

    Oh no, WiseGuy, this can't be happening!
    My heart breaks for you, I'm at loss for words.
    Sending you mountains of love.
    I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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  111. Heather24 January 2011 at 00:36

    I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter. My heart aches for you. Thinking of you and your family right now.

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  112. Alex24 January 2011 at 00:36

    I'm so very sorry.

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  113. Roccie24 January 2011 at 00:38

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I am so very sorry Lola could not stay with you.

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  114. BrandiAnn24 January 2011 at 00:45

    I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers go out to you and your little angel.

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  115. Jenny24 January 2011 at 01:09

    There is nothing scarier than having a bub in the NICU and nothing more terrible in all the world than losing her. I am so very sorry to read that your dear Lola isn't with you. There is nothing anyone can do or say to make this hurt less, but if there was there are so many of us that would do it for you in a heartbeat.

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  116. Missy24 January 2011 at 01:19

    Words can not express how my heart breaks for you. Keeping you and Lola dear at heart!

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  117. Deborah24 January 2011 at 02:20

    I found my way over from Elana's Musings. I am so, so sorry for your loss. Life just isn't fair.

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  118. Lollipop Goldstein24 January 2011 at 02:54

    I am so incredibly sorry. I'm holding you in my heart right now.

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  119. Crystal Theresa24 January 2011 at 03:04

    I'm new to your blog and just wanted to extend my condolences and let you know how terribly sorry I am for your loss. There are no other words. I know how loved and wanted and longed for your Lola is. Though our experiences are different, I know the devastation of losing a baby, and my heart is aching for you and your family, and pray your loved ones can provide the comfort you need. ((hugs))

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  120. - Mrs. D24 January 2011 at 03:15

    I found my way to your blog from Mel's list... oh, my heart goes out to you. I am so, so, so sorry to hear about this and I am lifting you up in prayer.

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  121. Lu24 January 2011 at 04:22

    I can't imagine the heartbreak that you guys are feeling right now. Please take care of yourself and Birdman. Prayers being sent your way.

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  122. Reba24 January 2011 at 04:27

    a lurker from another blog, stopping by to offer thoughts. like many others, i am shocked beyond belief that the doctors would keep such a thing from you. i am so incredibly sorry.

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  123. Suzy24 January 2011 at 05:52

    I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of another beautiful baby girl. I wish you some moments of peace amongst the heartwrenching grief. Know that you have an entire community behind you ready to support you as you negotiate the tricky road ahead.

    Lots of love and light to you all xxxxx

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  124. MamaKK92224 January 2011 at 07:13

    I have never commented here before but I wanted you to know I am SO very sorry for you loss! You are in my prayers.

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  125. bodegabliss24 January 2011 at 07:27

    I am so, so sorry. Thinking of you and your family and sending love.

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  126. Joycee24 January 2011 at 08:30

    over from the brick wall to tell you how very sorry I am for your great loss. We too lost babies, there are no words that will ease the pain now but know by all these comments that you are loved and prayed for.

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  127. Polly Gamwich24 January 2011 at 08:48

    I nearly want to vomit. This news is so disturbing I can't even believe it. My heart is aching for you and your family. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss.

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  128. BB24 January 2011 at 09:14

    I have been visiting your page so many times since you posted this... hoping that this isn't true and I was just imagining things!

    Had read this on another blog... "There is no foot too small that it cannot leave an imprint on this world." And it's so very true, your angel will always be remembered! You are in my thoughts

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  129. heartincharge24 January 2011 at 09:15

    No, no, no.

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  130. One Who Understands24 January 2011 at 09:17

    There are no words. I have been blog stalking you for a while now and was so excited when you conceived. I am so so sorry. My heart breaks for you.

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  131. Tasha24 January 2011 at 09:28

    My heart breaks for you. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers during this time.

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  132. Fertility Chick24 January 2011 at 09:46

    Words cannot express how much my heart hurts for you. Holding you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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  133. Sunny24 January 2011 at 09:52

    I am having trouble finding words for this comment, as nothing seems able to convey the heartbreak that I am feeling for you right now.

    I am so, so, so sorry, Wiseguy.

    Shit.

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  134. edenland24 January 2011 at 09:56

    Wiseguy. I just can't believe that things like this can happen, in the world. I don't understand. Sending you my love, and thoughts, and tears. xox

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  135. Brenda24 January 2011 at 10:00

    Oh my Lord. I am speechless with shock and sadness for you. I have no words. I send you all of my prayers for you and Birdman as you traverse this unimaginable heartache.

    I am so very, very, sorry. If there was anything that I could do, know that I would....

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  136. justine24 January 2011 at 10:15

    I am so very sorry ... words aren't enough here, but know that you are in my thoughts. My heart hurts for you.

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  137. Hope24 January 2011 at 10:19

    I am so sorry. That is so very awful. My heart is breaking for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  138. tasivfer24 January 2011 at 10:25

    I'm so, so sorry. ((HUGS))

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  139. Rambler24 January 2011 at 10:26

    Oh wiseguy, I am so so sorry. I am in shock, I read your news over on LFCA. Please know you are in my prayers. I wish I could do something more. Sorry.

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  140. J24 January 2011 at 10:44

    I read the news on LFCA as well and I'm so very sorry. So so so sorry for your loss and outraged that you were kept in the dark. Sending lots of love and prayers.

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  141. Rose's Daughter24 January 2011 at 11:29

    I am so so sorry. I have been lurking for a long time, but just wanted to say you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  142. ~W~24 January 2011 at 11:50

    Keeping you and your family in my prayers! Sorry for the loss.

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  143. Melissa G24 January 2011 at 12:10

    My heart is breaking for you. I am so very sorry.

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  144. Jeanette24 January 2011 at 13:15

    I'm so so very sorry. Lola is a beautiful name.x

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  145. lostintranslation24 January 2011 at 14:40

    Oh WiseGuy, this is so unbelievably sad and shocking. There is not much I can do, but please know that you and your sweet Lola are in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you and Birdman lots of strength. Hold each other tight.

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  146. loribeth24 January 2011 at 19:11

    Here from LFCA. This is so horribly, horribly unfair. The whole damn thing. Many, many (((HUGS))) being sent your way.

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  147. raisingmiles24 January 2011 at 21:07

    My heart is aching for you. Many, many, huge hugs to you.

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  148. Lynn24 January 2011 at 22:41

    Oh, honey :( I am so very terribly sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and sending many hugs and much love to you.

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  149. DaisyGal24 January 2011 at 22:56

    oh no, oh no....my heart is breaking for you and your beautiful daughter.
    My love, prayers and heart is with you right now.
    I am so sorry.

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  150. Kathryn25 January 2011 at 01:26

    I am so, so sorry to hear about the loss of Lola, your baby girl. I know words are not enough, but so many people are thinking about you and remembering Lola. She will never be forgotten.

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  151. Catherine W25 January 2011 at 03:45

    I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter, Lola. You and your family are in my thoughts xo

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  152. theluckylife25 January 2011 at 17:44

    I'm so terribly, terribly sorry. This cannot possibly be true. Why have they kept this from you??? You are all in my thoughts, there are no words.

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  153. andrea25 January 2011 at 23:50

    i can't imagine the pain you are feeling. sending lots of prayers.

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  154. Monique27 January 2011 at 07:20

    I am so very sorry. There are no words. Sending you much love. xoxo

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  155. wifey27 January 2011 at 10:18

    Lola will not be forgotten. You are so loved, and so is she.

    My heart is with you.

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  156. Tara27 January 2011 at 23:11

    My heart goes out to you. I am so saddened by your loss.

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  157. Dream Mommy6 February 2011 at 00:47

    I have been there almost 4 years ago with the loss of our daughter and I know the pain is indescribable. So sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers.

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  158. pinkreflections11 February 2011 at 19:07

    I am so shocked to hear about this unbelievable loss. No words could offer consolation. My thoughts are with you in this dark time.

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