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ISeeYou


I have thought about removing you from the regular bag.

You better give me something
To fill the hole
Before I sputter out


In fact, when I switched bags recently, I held you in my hands and thought of whether to?

Life is white and I am black


I catch your glimpse, standing in the parking lot, hunting for the keys.

I catch your glimpse, scouring for appropriate currency notes to hand over to the shopkeeper.

This paint by numbers life is fucking with my head


I catch your glimpse, in attempting to find a pen.

I catch your glimpse, looking for my diary, to take notes.

I catch your glimpse whenever I empty the whole bag for a crap sorting endeavour.

Life is hard and so am I


I catch your glimpse, whenever I try to take out a comb, safety pins, lip gloss, or ATM cards…

You are always there.

Guess who is living here
With the great undead


Dear that-one-ultrasound-picture, are you not expected to fade away?

Novocaine for the soul
Before I sputter out



^WiseGuy^



Lyrics: Novocaine for the Soul by The Eels

Comments

  1. It might fade for a while but it might get brighter and stronger too.

    xxx

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  2. What an intense portrait of longing and wonder and pain. It's a tough choice whether to keep it where you see it every day or not. Hoping your heart knows the what is best for your head and vise versa.

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  3. amazed and in awe of the power of your words

    wishing I could give you more than my own feeble version in sympathy

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  4. A very hard decision, indeed.

    ((HUGS))

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  5. I still carry the ultrasound pic of the little girl I lost in my wallet.

    {{{Hugs}}}

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  6. Amazing.

    Holding you in my heart . . .

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  7. My heart is hurting for you and your precious little one...

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