So many people don't understand our need to have these dates. They are so unbelievable difficult and yet, and yet... they are something tangible to hold on to.
Not long now and your lining will be shedding away!! i've read your past few posts and I woudl say that maybe you shoudl give IUI a go in September. What is your PhD in? Thank you also so much for checking on me, please stay in touch if you feel like it. I wish you all the very best and I'm sending you a gentle hug. Fran
...On the night of 19th when my breasts became hard and sore to touch, the nurses brought me hot water bottles rather than my baby. I should have known. ...Birdman was apparently away to Very Big City with our baby. Every SMS update sent to me about her after 16th Jan was fake. I was a donkey eating at his trough. I should have known. ...Visitors who came to see me in the hospital did not look me straight in the eye. I should have known. ...My mother sounded reluctant every time I asked her on a timeline on when my stitches would be cut and I could travel to Very Big City. I should have known. ...I grieved at how many pricks and tubes were affixed to my little baby while she lay cold and unfeeling at the bottom of an earth pit fatigued from all the effort she put into staying alive. I should have known. ...Family dropped clues on how oxygen deprivation could affect the brain. I spelt it out for them. I told them that Lola was my daughter even if she came out r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d from the o...
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ReplyDeleteThese sorts of milestones are so hard.
Here's praying that you have an entirely different -- and completely happy -- set of milestones to celebrate, very soon.
These days... the dates that you never ever forget, they come to quickly. Hoping and praying that you get through today with peace.
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{{{Hugs}}} and love coming to you.
ReplyDeleteYou're in my thoughts, I've got two of those "dates" coming up soon....and I'm dreading it.
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xxx
Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry you have to pass this day without your little ones. Sending you love and hugs and wishes for better tomorrows.
ReplyDeleteOh that damned internal clock that counts the days, weeks, months, years, whether we want it to or not.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry things aren't different.
Hanging on to hope with you.
xxx
Tough day to remember. Hang on in there. Sorry it's so damn hard.
ReplyDeleteHugs sweetie.
ReplyDeleteI also have one of THOSE dates fast approaching. Hate them! The could have been's they hurt like hell!
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))
Its never easy. The constant reminders make sure of that. You're not alone, though, and this too shall pass.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you will have to go through this day without your little ones. Thoughts and prayers to you through this tough time.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, and I wish I had more to give you than that. (It appears that I end up saying "I wish" a lot to you.)
ReplyDeleteMay you find comfort.
These dates are so hard and never far from your mind.
ReplyDeleteWishin you peace and strength.
I'm so sorry sweetie! I wish you weren't having to remember these milestones. I can't wait to celebrate a complete different set of milestones!
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of peace and love.
*HUGS*
((BIG HUGS))
ReplyDeleteMy heart is with you my friend.
ReplyDeleteSo many people don't understand our need to have these dates. They are so unbelievable difficult and yet, and yet... they are something tangible to hold on to.
ReplyDeleteI wish you had your babies too. (((HUGS)))
(((hugs))) life sucks sometimes.
ReplyDeleteNot long now and your lining will be shedding away!! i've read your past few posts and I woudl say that maybe you shoudl give IUI a go in September. What is your PhD in?
ReplyDeleteThank you also so much for checking on me, please stay in touch if you feel like it. I wish you all the very best and I'm sending you a gentle hug. Fran
Thinking so very much about you today. ~hugs~
ReplyDeleteDates like these are hard, so very hard.
ReplyDeleteHolding you close in my thoughts...
((HUGS))
Sending you virtual hugs. These dates suck. xxx
ReplyDeleteDates suck. Sending you some belated love.
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