Yesterday evening, there came a time when my entire being was focussed (nay concentrated) on some uterine core that was leading to the vayjayjay….so much so, that I was checking at whenever-possible intervals if there was bleeding already or not?
I was flipped over the prospect of Sunday morning POAS.
That brief while of obsession was overtaken by a bigger scare at hand – a viva on Monday, and since I had been unable to arrange a meeting with my research guide on Thursday and Friday, it had become uber-urgent to meet him on Saturday…so his pursuit made me stop thinking of the impending POAS.
Somewhere within that time, I was thinking of what-if it did come out positive, what would happen after that...and how would I break the news. Also, I had already thought about whether I would run a common disclaimer about all posts on pregnancy or would individually add the note to all my posts.
I was wondering how much I would love Geometry if I got to see two parallel lines, given the fact that I never did profess so much passion for it when I had to bear it through school.
All that thought did not go waste!
I now know what I would do if it was to happen…even if, it is of no use right now. You see, today morning, I peed and kept my eyes peeled putting every drop into the ‘well’, and eventually all I found was a single, chirpy red line brightly colour up.
That was the end. That was it. That was the final truth.
I am not depressed. I am not even emotionally torn. I did not mount the yo-yo this time… Somewhere I was very prepared to deal with it.
I don’t have Jaundice and I am not pregnant. Yay!
^WiseGuy^
I was flipped over the prospect of Sunday morning POAS.
That brief while of obsession was overtaken by a bigger scare at hand – a viva on Monday, and since I had been unable to arrange a meeting with my research guide on Thursday and Friday, it had become uber-urgent to meet him on Saturday…so his pursuit made me stop thinking of the impending POAS.
Somewhere within that time, I was thinking of what-if it did come out positive, what would happen after that...and how would I break the news. Also, I had already thought about whether I would run a common disclaimer about all posts on pregnancy or would individually add the note to all my posts.
I was wondering how much I would love Geometry if I got to see two parallel lines, given the fact that I never did profess so much passion for it when I had to bear it through school.
All that thought did not go waste!
I now know what I would do if it was to happen…even if, it is of no use right now. You see, today morning, I peed and kept my eyes peeled putting every drop into the ‘well’, and eventually all I found was a single, chirpy red line brightly colour up.
That was the end. That was it. That was the final truth.
I am not depressed. I am not even emotionally torn. I did not mount the yo-yo this time… Somewhere I was very prepared to deal with it.
I don’t have Jaundice and I am not pregnant. Yay!
^WiseGuy^
I'm so glad you don't have jaundice!
ReplyDeleteWell, I am glad it's not jaundice.
ReplyDeleteI am glad you don't have jaundice too! I am glad you're OK and you're not upset. Can I be upset for you, though? Because I am..just a little...
ReplyDelete*HUGS*
While I'm glad that you don't have Jaundice, Can I be sad that there was only one line?
ReplyDeleteIm on the same train as everyone else..I am super glad you don't have jaundice..But I am a *little* sad there was only one line...
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are jaundice free, and that being scared by it in some way made a single line easy to deal with, though it stinks.
ReplyDeleteGlad you're jaundice free - but that one line - it still sucks hairballs...
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Whew! Glad the jaundice scare has a happy ending. Sorry about the POAS... it sounds like you are handling it better than I am right now.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you say you're not sad or depressed,I guess that's the one or perhaps only benefit of trying for so long, the disapointments don't seem as crushing.
ReplyDeleteReally pleased its not jaundice!
It's always amazing to me how some months are completely unbearable, yet others we feel completely numb.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I wonder if the one line reaction manifests in a sort of post traumatic stress disorder. One minute I am fine it's negative and the next moment I am all torn up. Glad the good news about the jaundice is helping with the 'negativity' of this morning's test.
ReplyDeleteLike everyone, glad it's not jaundice but sad about the pg test.
ReplyDeleteBlah on the single red line!! And why the hell do we torture ourselves with the "what-ifs"???! Isn't is enough that we have to go through this in the first place? Ugh!
ReplyDeleteLOL on the loving geometry. That thought never crossed my mind!
So no jaundice and alas, no pregnancy (yet). You do like to be mysterious don't you? Hope your test result show it's nothing serious. Sorry for the single line. :(
ReplyDeleteWell, I wish you'd gotten better news, though I am glad you don't have jaundice, of course. Ditto on a previous comment: "why the hell do we torture ourselves with the 'what-ifs'?
ReplyDeletexxx
So glad there is no jaundice but I still wish you had gotten two lines.
ReplyDeleteYay for no jaundice and yay for no yo-yo but boo for only one line :(
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear your jaundice scare is no more. Sorry to hear about your POAS results, sounds like you are handling it okay.
ReplyDeleteICLW (a little early - hey I'm on bedrest)